Etched in the illusion of time
Lord knows I'm not good as this, but here goes:
On Saturday I was in my closing night of the musical, and I was coughing so hard I couldn't breathe. A certain guy (whom I do not know very, very well) took it upon himself to be the only one making sure I survived. Well, I did. So we're sitting backstage, and even though it's apparent that I'll pull through, he insists I stay. Kindly obliging, I sit next to him on the bleachers. I can't quite remember how, but somehow he ended up kissing me. I'm quite taken aback, and when I try to go again, he insists I stay and he kisses me again. And again. Interesting, but what's even better is that his GIRLFIEND is in the audience.
We had to leave for bows, and once they were over, I got changed and he followed me downstairs to the locker rooms (after talking to said girlfriend, by the way). To avoid a friend's sister, he pulls me into the weight room, where we are met by another couple who accuses us of "doing the same thing" they're down here to do. I leave, and shortly after, he tries to invite me again, saying there's "benches" down there. Now, can anyone think of what was going through his mind? Right.
After I'm finishing being struck with another coughing fit, he takes the liberty of trying to lead me into a dark alcove and coerce me to join him. I decline, and head up the stairs while he stands there. He asks me again why I won't come, and I turn around and tell him "You're a boy, and have a girlfriend *cough*". (I accidentally said that, but meant it only to say that I wasn't going to feed his lusts, not to say I was a lesbian. He probably misconstrued this.)
Things got buried from that point on, until today when I figured I'd better say something to make sure he doesn't think it'll happen again since we left o such obscure terms. I asked him why that had happened, and he said to me all evasively "Oh, it was just a friendly kiss." and says he has to go. I let him off easy.
Sure, it was. I believe you.
Now, will someone please tell me, is he trying to justify his behavior on Saturday as just being friendly so he might do it again? And should I approach him yet again and just lay it down straight that it was not justifiable on any terms, and it will never happen again?
Because, honestly, if it was just a friendly kiss, he'd have no problem telling his girlfriend what happened, now would he...? Or better yet, me telling her exactly how things went.
Thanks for whatever help this generates.
If I were to touch you, would you bleed a velvet river, running miracles through the sodden ground? --Moi
[This message has been edited by IndigoEve (11-16-2004 09:08 PM).]