Yuma, AZ, USA
I must say that I agree with "devine" and "mister". I was in a situation where I was involved with a young woman who was five years older than me. I was 19 at the time and I fell in love with her and desperately wanted to marry her. She also had two little girls and for as long as I can remember I wanted to get married and have a family. We got engaged, informal like, and started planning our lives together. I had to leave her for a period of time, being in the Marines and all, and I started to contemplate what I was about to do and I saw that It wasn't in either of our best interests to move forward in our relationship. Alot of differentiating circumstances, the basic thing was that our lives were going into two different directions. Well I tried to break it off several times but my love her wouldn't allow me to. I was completely drawn to her like a drug. I was totally addicted to her love. I knew it wasn't good for either of us but I just couldn't do it. Then when I left for good I still couldn't do it. It wasn't till two months after I had left that I finally was able to break it all off completely. I cried and hurt so much that I thought my heart would explode. It wasn't till almost two months ago did I completely get over her. It was hard but I look back now and I don't regret breaking it off at all no matter how much it hurt.
Amber, the reason I said all that was this. Sometimes the best thing for us, is not always the easiest. That is what seperates the men from the boys, the women from the girls. Doing the hard and unfun stuff when it has to be done. No matter how much it hurts, b/c that is what is best for everyone. Keep your head up and find you a good close friend for a shoulder to cry on. Preferably a female, b/c you don't want to get involved in one of those rebound relationships. Then you would probably get hurt worse off than before. I will be praying for you Amber. Know that you are a blessing and that God knows your pain and sees you and is watching over you. You are his child and he loves you.