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jwesley
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-04-30

Posts 7563
Spring, Texas

0 posted 2005-06-17 11:40 PM

Mere Thought

Mere thought never entered my mind.
Caustic runnels eating my heart
could not be . . . mere thought . . .
anymore than I can accept –

your death –

whatever the reason
or not.

Lugubriously rising
from your side of the bed –
the side where you use to lay –
I see blood shot eyes,
more than just an unshaven face,
unkempt hair.

Looking back is man given to feeling sorry
for himself.

For himself –
the product of mere thought of past
months dead – You.

Months dead – whatever the reason
or not.

And me dying inside
like some beetle riddled pine
rotting from the core.

Mere thought never entered my mind,
but it’s leading me to death’s own chasm
as surely as the bullet in the gun
I cannot use.

Slowly, inexorably, mere thought
is taking me home
to you.

© w.james beard, jr.
june 2005

...nope, don't have any idea where this came from...
guess it's just...mere thought.

SEA

Moderator

Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

1 posted 2005-06-18 12:00 PM

my gosh...this rips at the heart

Justbleu
Member Elite

since 1999-08-31

Posts 3329
Oregon, Originally From Alaska :)

2 posted 2005-06-18 01:43 AM

So sad....but made me think.
I like this very much!!!!

Bridgette

"Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again. To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." A. Brink

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

3 posted 2005-06-18 12:11 PM

James?

I once wrote of knowing more death than life and I have, and I also write of being in that most perfect plane for death is something I do not fear. The sad thing about death, is that it is far more painful for those us of us living, in my opinion. The soul travels to sweet release and we are left to live.

to you, my sweet friend, I know this place very well, unfortunately.

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

4 posted 2005-06-20 04:30 PM

And me dying inside
like some beetle riddled pine
rotting from the core.

I know so many who know these thoughts all too well... Great write!

Enchantress
Member Empyrean

since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

5 posted 2005-06-20 04:51 PM

Well it sure does tug at the heart strings,
wherever it came from.
~Hugs to you, Nancy~

~Somewhere in my heart I'm always
dancing with you in the summer rain~

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