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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Alone to heal Hurt and pain darkness and sorrow here today and more tomorrow. My life absorbing painful cruelity. Will anyone ever care for me? Now is gone forever no more love now or never. I wanted to love her in every way. She would proceed to hurt me day by day. Two drawn together by a common thread. Hurt and pain and darkness and sorrow here today and again tomorrow. Even today I feel her pain haunting me and remember my pain begging for her sympathy. Her pain was always aware. A broken family bounced her from here to there. And then on a bad day, her best friend passed away. This day that proved to be her hardest day. Death stepped in and stole her friend. She was sure to hate a loss this great, this friend who was her mother, oh, how she loved her mother. And still today she calls me to say she was thinking about the death of her beloved mom that very day. Once again she is burning with emotion openly and grieving and mourning endlessly. Is it true she will never love another? And so I thought this daughter who lost her mother would grow to love me like no other and we would always love one another. I was the first to receive the news that her mother passed away on that fateful day. My memory can share I broke the news to her with love and care those saddest of sad words that exposed her soul bare. You can believe me it is not any fun to tell another they have lost a loved one. Hurt and pain and darkness and sorrow here today and still here tomorrow. A life that dispenses painful cruelity and today as I offer every sympathy I wonder will she ever care for me. On that day I thought somehow this pain would bond us together. Would the grief we share help us to care? My pain was not the same pain as she. She a daughter who lost her mother, oh, how she loved her mother. He a daddy who lost three precious sons, never more his life for them to share, to have their daddy always near to care. A prior divorce took all three away, the judge said "Be cool, I'll assign a visitation day." It seems to me this pain we shared inside our hearts first pulled us together and later drove us apart. She left me more than a year ago today and the new pain we share won't go away. Sometimes I think she blames me for the death of her mother. Oh, how she loved her mother as she could love no other. I offered every sympathy and again I wonder will she ever care for me? Maybe her pain won't let her love another never to be hurt again like that fateful day she lost her best friend. Enough hurt and despair we sure could use someone to care. So we two remain far apart each looking for a brand new start. Someday a love gone bad will lose its zeal and leave our hearts alone to heal. Jameslee@February13,2000 formyfamily..may.we.all.heal valentinesday [This message has been edited by jmlee12345 (edited 02-14-2000).] |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
It seems to me this pain we shared inside our hearts first pulled us together and later drove us apart... this is so very touching...a moving sad poem jmlee...very well written and expressed... divorce and death of loved ones are two of lifes hardest test...I will wish for healing for you all, you are in my thoughts and prayers. take care...stay strong, janet marie In the time we've known That we each are a part of one another We've lost as much as we have won... And as our lives have grown We have found that it only brings us pain To hang on to the things that we have done... ***Still I love the times you've come*** Jackson Browne |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
I love your soft heart Janet Marie. Hope you have a lovely valentines day. James |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
well, thank you James... same to you sweets! (smile) "...we were born before the wind...also younger than the sun... and my heart you have won...as we sailed into the mystic... I just want to rock your gypsy soul- just like in the days of old... and together we will float-into the mystic... Van Morrison |
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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
i couldn't say it any better than janet did. i think it is true that the pain that brings two together can ultimately drive them apart. i have had the same experience in a relationship with slightly different kinds of pain. those two you expressed are indeed the hardest pains to overcome. a great poe i related to well. i especially liked the lines: hurt and pain darkness and sorrow here today and more tomorrow.... (the story of my life) i also hope the both of you can heal and learn to love again. after all, what is life without love. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Thank you Janet you made me smile and laugh. Thank you danni I'm glad that you enjoyed reading this and could relate to it as well. I agree with you so much when you say what is life without love. I would lose all hope if not for love. James |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
My sympathies and understanding James. Loss is hard enough to deal with in the best of circumstances. I enjoyed this a lot the emotion and all. Well done as always my friend. Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely. ~Isis~ (Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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JennyLee Senior Member
since 1999-09-01
Posts 1461Northwestern, NJ. |
Bittersweet piece James, desolation due to a loss. Done Well! Jennifer |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Thank you Isis and Jenny. I have often wondered why we are drawn to another. And I know of course it is the looks, personality, education, money, power, shared interest and so on, but sometimes we are drawn to another because of our pain, and we feel a connection in our pain. James |
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