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Elizabeth Santos
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0 posted 2002-06-18 11:14 AM



White Cotton Sheets

Oh, the white of cotton sheets
The perfect edge, the perfect pleats
The dreary walls, the lonely halls
The soft excruciating calls

I always gladly stood by you
Through every test they put you through
The chemicals, the painful nights
The nightmare dreams and stinging bites

But when I saw you lying there
So thin and weak, no voice, no hair
Your chest, your head, your thinning back
Were left in radiation black

My eyes were not prepared to view
This dying man, this other you
Who lived with me beneath blue sky
And now a man too weak to cry

And oh, the white of cotton sheets
The tubes and needles, rhythmic beats
Metallic bed, metallic sound
A skimpy robe they tied around

My heart was not prepared to see
You tugging chains to set you free
And oh, how much your eyes beseech
A nurse’s button out of reach

Never had I seen on earth
Discomfort’s torture on a berth
With cotton sheets of sterile white
And ends and corners tucked in tight

Your rose was but a thorny bush
A button there too weak to push
And all your pain I took as mine
Til morphine’s regulation time

A bowl of soup you could not eat
Disturbing words you could not speak
A skeleton between the threads
Of sheets of white on metal beds

And every player played his part
But no one had prepared my heart

Elizabeth Santos


[This message has been edited by Elizabeth Santos (06-18-2002 11:15 AM).]

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Goodknight
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1 posted 2002-06-18 11:28 AM


I am speechless but truly overwhelmed at the power of your verse - Paul
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2 posted 2002-06-18 11:28 AM



Oh Elizabeth...
there are no words for this portrayal...
except that I know how much heart it took
to write of it...

Pilgrimage
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3 posted 2002-06-18 12:35 PM


This made me cry. I felt it with you. So well written. I would not have thought there were words to convey this reality, but you found them.

Nan

Elizabeth Santos
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4 posted 2002-06-18 12:59 PM


Paul, I've had this picture in my mind and now it's come our in words. Thank you

Karilea, theses disturbing words had to be written.I've held them in so long
THank you for your kind words

Liz

Elizabeth Santos
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5 posted 2002-06-18 01:02 PM


Nan,
Thank you for responding to these wrenching toughts
Liz

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6 posted 2002-06-18 01:19 PM


(((hugs)))  
Madame Chipmunk
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7 posted 2002-06-18 01:28 PM


Liz...My heart cries with you, real tears and real pain.
I couldn't believe it when I saw this poem.
My dear first husband died of lung cancer, 3 years ago and as I was reading your poem, I was reliving his death....almost word for word.
It was quite a horrible way to die, but I could never get the words out as beautifully and poignantly as you have.
Yours is a poem of raw truth.

~ sadly hugging you

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled"  Gwendolyn Brooks

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8 posted 2002-06-18 01:33 PM


Oh Elizabeth...this is so achingly sad.
So sad...I am speechless.
~Heart-hugs~

Elizabeth Santos
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9 posted 2002-06-18 03:14 PM


Mysteria, Thank you, dear, your hugs are always warm

Lyra, Oh, thank you so much for your input. I didn't want to post this thinking no one would understand. This is a subject never talked about but I am sure Many have felt.
HUgs

Elizabeth Santos
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10 posted 2002-06-18 03:16 PM


Enchantress, Thank you. I would like to point out also that I gained a new resect for nurses and for their profession during this experience.
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11 posted 2002-06-18 04:15 PM


I know that, for you, this was the poem that you needed to write. . .

peace and thoughts to you my friend. . . always. . .

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To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

Elizabeth Santos
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12 posted 2002-06-18 07:04 PM


Sven, Thank you so much for your words and your friendship
Liz

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13 posted 2002-06-18 10:21 PM


Liz, this is soooo sad. Makes my heart ache.
Thank you for sharing it.

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14 posted 2002-06-18 10:24 PM




(tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Elizabeth, this about tore my heart reading this, sweet friend, I know how sad and uncomfortable it must feel having to see something like this and I have nothing more to say about this other than it is so wonderfully heartfelt! (BIG HUGGGSSSSSSS) My thoughts are with you, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Elizabeth, thank you for sharing!



May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

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15 posted 2002-06-18 10:33 PM


I can think of no one else who could have written this poem with such impact. Your words painted the picture perfectly. My admiration for your work continues to grow...
Martie
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16 posted 2002-06-18 11:06 PM


Liz

I am so glad to see you write this reality...now you can start to heal and hang those sheets you sleep in every night, out into the sunshine's bright, then sleep within that fragile clock that captures fregrance and becomes your rock.  Much love to you from me!

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17 posted 2002-06-18 11:59 PM


I am utterly at a loss for word here Liz...

this was painstakingly beautiful...
so clear your tears are penned...

wonderful flow of your heart

~HUGS~ sweetie...

take care
~D

Open arms can be the most fragile in the world...



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18 posted 2002-06-19 01:43 PM


Elizabeth,

Nothing could have ever prepared you but you handled the pain and sadness with your characteristic grace. (((HUGS)))

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19 posted 2002-06-19 01:52 PM


OH, Elizabeth...this is some kind of expression.  I hope writing is as soothing for you as it is for those of us reading your words.  What a strong woman you must be!  This is utterly perfect in display.  I'm so sorry for the experiences that brought you such a write.
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20 posted 2002-06-20 12:52 PM


May I ditto Balladeer? *S* I think too many of us can identify... but only you could write the ache and helplessness. I can only imagine how painful this was to write... and how much it needed to be written. It's heart-wrenching perfection.
Elizabeth Santos
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21 posted 2002-06-21 07:03 AM


I would like to thank all for yoour heartfelt responces to this poem. It makes a difference when you can express and share feelings. THank you all very much
Liz

ethome
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22 posted 2002-07-01 06:40 AM


Elizabeth....This is from a deep well I know.........It's a marvelous display of your heart.
Thanks for sharing........Eric

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23 posted 2002-07-01 07:35 AM


Remainer's song you pain, he gone, God gives the strength to struggle on. I appreciate this write.
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