I Have No Clue

I wonder if it is possible to for your heart to drown
From all of the tears all of the tears you stuff inside
Refusing to let the tears to be seen by anyone
Sometimes I feel them starting to form up in my eyes

What good would it do to give in and cry anyway
There is nothing I can do to make him stop drinking
It never does me any good to try to talk to him
He always says so many things without even thinking

I listen to what he says to me, always tearing me apart
And, I wonder if he really means all of the things he says to me
Does he even care how much it hurts to hear the things he says
Or that he is destroying all of the love I felt for him completely

Should I feel all this guilt for these feelings I now have
I try so hard to keep the things he said from hurting me
But with each and everything he said and did each time
It became a little harder to keep the words from hurting me

Have I lost all of the goodness I once felt inside my heart
I know without a doubt my love for him was really true
A forgiving heart is what I always had with everyone before
The answers to all of these questions, I have no clue

By Sue 7-26-02