Don't take me back to Yesterday

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Charisma

Member Ascendant

since 2000-09-30

Posts 5906
lost in blue pages

0 posted 2002-01-31 04:02 PM

Don't take me back to yesterday

As I sit in front of my mirror
To watch my face in blue
The sadness in my eyes
Tortures with painful truth

Pain and sorrow strike along
All over my gloomy whole
However can I take myself
Into memories to console?

Please let me find fond memories
In daydreams of today,
Shoulder of the weeping me
Guides me along my way

Please don't take me ever
Back to yesterday
To torments of acid images
Racked of inner fray

Don't you know my fears?
To face the anguish in me
It hides behind a threshold
I still can't set her free

I can't cherish my youth
The innocence of childhood
Because it was abused
No memories found to soothe

So please hear my plea,
Printed with bitter tears
Shed because of yesterday.

Charisma ~*TMP*~
13/12/01

~*Theresia~*

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

1 posted 2002-01-31 04:11 PM

(big huggsgssssss) Such tears fill your words, sweet friend, I know just how you feel and I too never want to go back to yesterday, for I've been abused emotionally and physically and I have no happy memories of being a boy! (kiss on cheek) We all love you so much, sweet friend, this is so sad but beautiful, my heart is always with you! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Charisma, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

2 posted 2002-01-31 04:24 PM

Charisma,
*soft sigh*
I would not take you back
to pain of yesterday
but I would hold you close
and weep with you in pray
I would hold your hand
if you join in the fray
and never...never let you go
till sun shines in bright array

Charisma if you need a heart of soul that understands... I'm here.
Keth

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown

Startime
Member Ascendant

since 2000-10-03

Posts 5918
Canada

3 posted 2002-01-31 04:30 PM

*sigh* I know these kinds of feelings..I spent not only my childhood in abuse but most of my adult life as well...my heart goes out to you..the memories never leave but they do fad...writing will help heal, dear one. **big big hugs**

Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams.

Madame Chipmunk
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

4 posted 2002-01-31 08:50 PM

Beautiful writing Charisma...its too bad that its about such an ugly subject. I have never been through any abuse but I know people who have and it is terrible.
My heart goes out to you...I am so sorry you had to suffer.

Soft hugs

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

5 posted 2002-01-31 09:10 PM

Hugs Charisma...James

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

6 posted 2002-01-31 09:11 PM

you expressed this well..
hugss
M (miss your beautiful picture)

RosePetal

Member Elite

since 2001-08-26

Posts 2985
South Florida

7 posted 2002-01-31 09:53 PM

I don't want to go back to yesterday either...I want to look ahead to tomorrow because I know it will bring brighter days!
(hugs) Put a new pic of u up sweetie!!!

RP

Bill Charles
Member Patricius

since 2000-07-11

Posts 10619
highways, & byways, for now

8 posted 2002-01-31 10:47 PM

Charisma - I don't want to go back there either. No, I don't think that I do...

BC

Daniel J D
Senior Member

since 2000-10-01

Posts 1471
Hillcrest, Queensland, Australia

9 posted 2002-01-31 10:47 PM

Oh Charisma, This is so very painful. Tears flow.

"I can't cherish my youth
The innocence of childhood"

Respond to my call and let the waves of my heart fill your life with the wonders of love
(Daniel J D)

Charisma

Member Ascendant

since 2000-09-30

Posts 5906
lost in blue pages

10 posted 2002-02-01 07:14 AM

Thank you all for your warmth and kindness. Even that a lot of years passed by, it don't fade as much I wanted. Maybe because I become older it seems that these haunting feelings knock louder inside. I was always ashamed to talk about it, but found so much people around the world that have to deal with the same, like some of you...that I dare to post it.
Thank you once again for your kindness and loving warmth.

((hugs))
Charisma

~*Theresia~*

Irish Rose
Member Patricius

since 2000-04-06

Posts 10263

11 posted 2002-02-01 02:20 PM

I believe real peace and happiness can ONLY come when we stop fostering the past and begin to nurture the present, thereby insuring the future, and we cannot go back to yesterday can we? Thank you for this, Charisma.

Kathleen--(Kay)
"When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey."
Laurie Lee

[This message has been edited by Irish Rose (02-01-2002 02:21 PM).]

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