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SpitFire
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since 2000-04-19
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0 posted 2001-07-14 04:53 PM


I am terrified of writing of her again,
as today remains in stables.
The stench of her secrets carrying all the times I’d wished she were well.
This hell - I know, it’s almost muddy now.
It’s almost so broken from the hold it spills,
like filthy water from the sky staining innocence.

I so often speak of letting go of the responsibility involved and the protection -
that weighs down the comforter at night,
settles feathers once fluffed and ready,
corners dreams in quite spaces outside the truth,
in stations screeching.

I too could have followed ways, said to hell with trying anymore.
I could have thrown the photographs in the river by the footbridge were we bled.
I could have burned the answers to their questions with that house,
on that street, in the middle of that city.
Where scribbles never described the ruin,
where glass would gather itself in fistfuls and scatter.

~

Instead I walked myself down concrete steps, forever.
I took what thoughts I had of her and ran.
Packed boxes of roses and warmth and sun in pretty paper
and new that maybe one day, the contents would save me, perhaps.

Ah, but no, that's not the truth, the whole.
The parting from yellow and concrete only turned
to climbing mountains, were she was buried and crying.
It only led to distance in her understanding.

And so I tread, and endure and crumble just the same.
And so I feel, and love, and hold on to what I can.
So that maybe someday, when I don't have the worry,
that I may feel forgiven, feel blessed in my decisions
not to wander too far from her needs, because in the end,
I know that some things matter more than others.

© Copyright 2001 SpitFire - All Rights Reserved
Janet Marie
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since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554

1 posted 2001-07-14 05:18 PM


damn girl......when I can compose words that make sense...I'll be back...
just wanted to say I missed you and Im glad to see you back....
hugs to you A, I see the struggle here..and I know...and I understand.
jm

Feels like Im dancing with truth and wisdom
Precious rhythm you are my guide
These days are sacred, my heart is humble
Oh warrior show me the light

brian madden
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since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374
ireland
2 posted 2001-07-14 07:33 PM


I echo jan sentiments, I missed ya too. I thought about sending you an e-mail but I did not it to seem like I was hounding you. Often your images take time to reveal themselves to be decoded this one however is direct and hard hitting. I am sorry for your loss. HUGE HUG. Take care and peace.
Janet Marie
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since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554

3 posted 2001-07-14 07:49 PM


This hell - I know, it’s almost muddy now.
It’s almost so broken from the hold it spills,
like filthy water from the sky staining innocence.

I so often speak of letting go of the responsibility involved and the protection -
that weighs down the comforter at night,
settles feathers once fluffed and ready,
corners dreams in quite spaces outside the truth,
in stations screeching.


I too could have followed ways, said to hell with trying anymore.
I could have thrown the photographs in the river by the footbridge were we bled.
I could have burned the answers to their questions with that house,
on that street, in the middle of that city.
Where scribbles never described the ruin,
where glass would gather itself in fistfuls and scatter.

=================
Packed boxes of roses and warmth and sun in pretty paper
and new that maybe one day, the contents would save me, perhaps.
===========================
It only led to distance in her understanding.

And so I tread, and endure and crumble just the same.
And so I feel, and love, and hold on to what I can.
So that maybe someday, when I don't have the worry,
that I may feel forgiven, feel blessed in my decisions
not to wander too far from her needs, because in the end,
I know that some things matter more than others.

===================

I told ya Id be back..had to worship this properly *smile*
You already will know this one touches me in places deep both for your reasons and mine..
the emotions are powerful...the WHOLE poem is powerful...the imagery is superb and as with all your work..every image, metaphor and verbiage is so unique. This is raw and intense, aching and vivid and most of all sincere.
The last verse's intend makes me wish I could hug you...
in the end...we have to do whats right for our conscious and our souls....
If we do our best and base our actions on truth and kindness...no one can ask for anymore...and when its all said and done...
regardless of the outcome...we will have known we did all we could...
there should never be guilt or shame for that.
beautiful write A.
love and peace to you
jm


Feels like Im dancing with truth and wisdom
Precious rhythm you are my guide
These days are sacred, my heart is humble
Oh warrior show me the light

[This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 07-14-2001).]

FireDancer123
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since 2001-06-14
Posts 43
Virginia
4 posted 2001-07-14 08:17 PM


wow spitfire.. it's beautiful.. sad and then suddenly nearly resolved. I'm gonna go back and read it again!  

::write forever::

"If you've never stared off into the distance, then your life is a shame." - A.Duritz
"Eat drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die." - Dave Matthews

Irish Rose
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since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263

5 posted 2001-07-14 08:35 PM


I'm utterly captivated by these words....this one really really got to me.  How did you come up with...well, it is just simply an amazing piece of writing.


catalinamoon
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since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543
The Shores of Alone
6 posted 2001-07-14 11:45 PM


Strong stuff, S. You have done it again, left me speechless.
Sandra

EagleOne
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since 2000-03-07
Posts 2829
Between a laugh and a tear...
7 posted 2001-07-15 12:26 PM


Wow! An awesome write my friend. I'll be back to read this again and again. Peace to you!

"Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our
feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly." ~unknown


JLR
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since 2001-02-04
Posts 1785

8 posted 2001-07-15 12:40 PM


Instead I walked myself down concrete steps, forever.
I took what thoughts I had of her and ran.
Packed boxes of roses and warmth and sun in pretty paper
and new that maybe one day, the contents would save me, perhaps.

Ah, but no, that's not the truth, the whole.
The parting from yellow and concrete only turned
to climbing mountains, were she was buried and crying.
It only led to distance in her understanding

These verses shook me deeply. The intensity of your work always amazes me!

VAS
Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450
Oregon
9 posted 2001-07-15 01:54 AM


an extremely powerful piece, and that last stanza stands out fantastically

You DO know how to end a poem...not the easiert section of a poem to do

Cpat Hair
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Member Patricius
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793

10 posted 2001-07-16 09:16 AM


Now this.... this is good stuff...

Can't tell you how I enjoyed this.


serenity blaze
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since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738

11 posted 2001-07-16 02:49 PM


You are a real writer.   There is never anything cliche' about you--I enjoy your work tremendously and envy your freedom of thought. Somehow fresh, even when dark. Excellent!
Martie
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since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049
California
12 posted 2001-07-16 03:31 PM


SpitFire--Your writing is always so amazing!!  You look so honestly at your feelings and spread them out with such rare art.

Hugs!

snowpants
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since 2000-09-16
Posts 2061
KS
13 posted 2001-07-16 06:22 PM


This is an outstanding work of art, spitfire...this is an amazing description of your emotions...I will also say that your imagery and intensity are fantastic!  I really like this...a keeper, for sure...

sp  

it was love that first drew me,
it is love that will keep me here...
now I see love burning brightly
when everything else is unclear...

Lone Wolf
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since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842
Lansing, MI USA
14 posted 2001-07-16 07:45 PM


You have once again succeeded in amazing me with the depth of your talent.  This was an acceptional write, A.  Totally beautiful and I am proud of you for posting this.  Take care and keep in touch, ok?  

All writing comes
by the grace of God.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Elizabeth Cor
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since 2000-10-13
Posts 879
Over the river and through the woods
15 posted 2001-07-17 02:58 AM


You stun me...

Not in the way an amateur stuns an admirer,
but the way truth stuns a seeker...

I wish that worry of mine had not been justified... hugs you, and *Peace ~smile~

[This message has been edited by Elizabeth Cor (edited 07-17-2001).]

SpitFire
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since 2000-04-19
Posts 2396

16 posted 2001-07-23 12:32 PM


~   . I'm embarrassed for the time it took me to get here, thank you truly for the replies, (gosh they're so thoughtful!), each one just crawls itself right back up to the poem itself and smothers it in some kind of comfort, thank you. *Peace poets.
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