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1slick_lady
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standing on a shadow's lace

0 posted 2001-06-12 02:30 PM



Going Home and Gone

twenty five years after leaving, I am going home
everyone in town knows my family name
but they don’t know me
the hospital is dedicated to my uncle
the library is where my grandma and grandpa lived
I now stand outside trembling, flooded in emotion
I close my eyes
I smell grandpa burning leaves
my great grandmother is in the rocker tatting
such beautiful lace she made
my mother in her apron shelling peas
see men in suits with ties loose, sipping bourbon on the porch
again I open my eyes
I remember right where the flower bed was
where I buried my grandma’s good silver
see the pecan trees where my sisters and I
knocked down nuts with cane poles
this place is so much a part of me, yet none of me at all
with the blue haired southern ladies whispering
and men plotting their power
and the true ugly secrets in old Mississippi money
I left
wanting no part of it, turning my back on it
as I look around, it is the same place I left
except gone
gone are the big white columns in front of our house
where I practiced my name in fat red crayon
over and over again when I learned how to write it
and gone
is me

"...the rest is silence" (Hamlet)       Shakespeare


© Copyright 2001 Helen Chambers - All Rights Reserved
Cpat Hair
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1 posted 2001-06-12 02:34 PM


Gone perhaps but never left behind..

as usual very fine work...


Lone Wolf
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2 posted 2001-06-12 02:40 PM


You never can really do back once you leave.  It is the same yet you look at it differently now.  Well said.

All writing comes
by the grace of God.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

g-hm
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3 posted 2001-06-12 03:50 PM


Sometimes we never can go back.
JLR
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4 posted 2001-06-13 12:24 PM


I remember the first time I went back down south after having been gone a number of years...I thought it had changed, then realized that it was I who'd changed.  Little known JLR fact, I can tat (though I'd forgotten all about it until I read this).  This is a great series you're doing!
vandana
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5 posted 2001-06-13 11:14 AM


enjoy
Mark
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6 posted 2001-06-13 11:24 AM


There is healing in touching past and also that realization that although gone, it is also who we are.  You've written that very well.
ethome
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7 posted 2001-06-13 04:08 PM


In a world of changes nothing stays the same....that's good in some ways and bad in others. This is a delightful poem!

The role of poetry is to utter the un-utterable; to open up
spaces of consciousness and resistance; to language oppressions; to
re-language historie

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