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Can't Do It All |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland 
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Seems to me I'm the strong one, Without me our world would come undone, Personal victories hardly ever won,, When will it be my turn in the sun? I help others when sick or down, But when it's me I'm merely a clown, Hoping for better, then again let down, So who holds me up when I am down? I cannot do it all, Cannot be a rock when anyone falls, Lately it's all an emotional squall, Who put me in charge of it all? Who helps me when I just can't do it? When physically I'm not up to it? These past 6 weeks merely a dismal pit, Who is there for me when I'm unfit? I never asked for it to be me, I never wanted total responsibility, Sometimes I too need to be treated tenderly, Sometimes I too need a break, need to be free. Where does it say that being 'the Mother' Means I must do it all and always suffer? Why is it always me and no other, Who battles these problems with one or another? It's always later it'll be done, Yes when I recover enough, I'm so dumb, It can wait another day or two, For no one will do it but little old you. Doctor's warnings never heeded, For if I don't do things, they go unheeded, It's a pain to be overneeded, It hurts to be taken for granted and mistreated. The burden is too heavy, Cannot carry it alone, Why I am expected too? Just like a dog is expected to fetch a bone? It's too much, Can't do it all the time, Your guilt now so evident, As you continually cross the line. Too much pain, Never any happiness to gain, You always turn it around, To make it my fault yet again..... I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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Wren Member
since 2000-07-05
Posts 312 |
I'm sorry! Being a wife and mother sounds very difficult..... I applaud you for all the selfless effort you put in every day.....It's heroic! I know that you feel very overwelmed right now, but I assure you, there are many who appreciate your hard work. I know it's difficicult to have all the responsibility, to try to hold together a family, but keep hanging in there, and keep writing these great poems! Your friend, Wren The thread of destiny Unknown by anyone Unseen by anyone Winds around your heart Moist with tears -Vampire Princess Miyu Theme |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Wren thankyou but please don't misunderstand me. Being a mother is the greatest gift I have ever and will ever receive. I adore it and my son. BUT I have had him sick for about 6 weeks now, it never stops, only lessens. Constant trips to the doctor etc. Then I fell, hurt my back and got sick myself. And during these hard times, no one I repeat NO ONE helped me in anyway.. I shouldn't have to always carry the burden alone, I too, need a break and some 'Lisa' time. I'm ok really, just venting. If I vent verbally I'm wrong for doing that too. I never asked to carry ALL burdens in a family situation - that is all. Thanks for the kind words hon *hugs*  I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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Hardrock Senior Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 948New Hampshire, USA |
Isis...even though I'm a man (checking...yep, I'm a man), I understand. I did this for years...it wears you down. Nicely written...women should post this for all their husbands (or vice-versa). Hardrock |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Thanks Hardrock!! Good to see SOME men do understand. Just need a good break of 'Lisa' time, and with these past 6 weeks, believe me, I deserve it!! I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Lisa, do I ever know this feeling. s [This message has been edited by catalinamoon (edited 07-18-2000).] |
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SpitFire Member Elite
since 2000-04-19
Posts 2396 |
~Isis,...of course you deserve it!!! Your poem here is so full of feeling. "Isis time" is due. Take it and enjoy it. Sending you a smile. . Be well Isis. *Peace. |
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Deborah1 Senior Member
since 2000-06-22
Posts 653New Hampshire |
Oh Isis, how well I can relate. I was superwoman for so long until I literally sufferred physically from it. I never regret the love that I hope I have given or the support to anyone that needed a friend..but I had to figure out what my needs were, and make sure they got met, ( of course thats after I knew I had needs lol) There is a grey area, the middleground, a wonderful place to discover. We become self-caring, not selfish. I hope you get some much needed and deserved rest, and something nice for yourself. |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
Isis, indeed you are not the "superwoman" that we make most women out to be. . . you have needs and feelings also. . . and hopefully one day, you'll get back the support that you need. . . Excellent poem. . . ---------------------------------------------------------- That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl |
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Lynne Dale Member
since 2000-07-18
Posts 114Melbourne Victoria |
Isis, I can relate to this and it's always hardest when you feel down yourself. Thanks for sharing. Sometimes I've found I need to ask for help or no-one knows how tired you are. Don't be afraid to ask. Be well kethry. When dark of night takes your soul Think of me and be made whole. |
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lotharingia Senior Member
since 2000-06-04
Posts 897saarbruecken, Germany |
Isis, I am so sorry that you aren't getting any support!  I'm sure if any of us lived near you we would help you! My dad was like that too. Fortunately my husband isn't (yet, touch wood!) Lotharingia "For God's sake, he's a poet. Poets are meant to feel miserable. Otherwise, what the hell are they here for? What are they going to write about?" Tom Holland |
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ChibiDeathscythe Member
since 2000-06-09
Posts 128 |
Oh Isis, I leave for a while, and when I come back yer down! I'm sorry you feel this way, but I can see it is very understandable, given the situation you described in the poem. I hope you feel better soon! Love always, Chibi [This message has been edited by ChibiDeathscythe (edited 07-18-2000).] |
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angel girl Member
since 1999-07-23
Posts 322within a whisper... |
I understand so much, even if I am not myself a mother. My mom had a mild stroke 2 months ago. A few days after the stroke, I got a kidney stone, which I had surgery for and it couldn't be removed. I still took care of my mother even though no one was there for me. Then I was sent back to the states for more surgery. When I arrived (mu mom was with me), she had a heart attack. On the day I was supposed to leave (a month later), I had my appendix taken out and was stuck in the hospital for over a week, unable to walk. While I was sick, my mother couldn't help me, but I still managed to help her. Okay I'm going o stop now. I think you get the picture. Just hang in there. Things get better. One touch of nature makes the whole world kin. -William Shakespeare |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Thanks everyone, I know I am not the only one.... but it gets you down, sometimes it is a never ending spiral or cycle, I have to vent somewhere!!!!! I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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Magebeast Member
since 2000-07-19
Posts 60 |
Although I can't claim to know what it's like to be a wife or mother (I'm male) I'll can still empathize with some of the feelings. It was well written...hope things look up. |
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