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bsquirrel
since 2000-01-03
Posts 7855
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This beautiful life is full of pain, More than I can bear. Why do feelings of love and peace Distort into confusion and fear? Where am I? Am I here? Am I near where I need to be, ever? My voice breaks apart in song. Everything is right is wrong. Why am I having these thoughts at 23? No, I'd never want it differently. Being intelligent doesn't make you happy, But it makes for a better life anyway. Still, when can I stop thrashing? When can I peacefully see where I need to be? I know adults who still think in drugs and drink And extramarital sex -- they still haven't found the answers; Just broken, shining moments of gold and bronze pleasure. To them, life is thirty pieces of silver. I don't want that, ever. I need god in my life, Which is why I write. Sometimes, when I tell the largest truth It feels like the deepest lie in my power to hurt. Will I ever make people happy? Will I ever know who I am? Will I ever know anything, really? God only knows; I learn. |
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Kit McCallum
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Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Oh Mike ... I can feel the thoughts twirling about in confusion in this thought-provoking verse. I've been there my friend, and it does help, to have faith that the thrashing will end. I do as you in times like this, take pen to paper, and write ... for each stroke of the pen is like a small prayer. If your words reached a mere mortal like me, then surely we can have faith that He will hear as well.  Best wishes and hugs, /Kit |
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Meadowmuse Member Elite
since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263 |
"Still, when can I stop thrashing? When can I peacefully see where I need to be?" Mike, the process by which we "see" can be a gradual one, I believe. You express yourself so well here, as always. When I read your work it is though we are in conversation, only I'm just the one listening. I posted a poem late last night titled "He Is Here" but I don't think many folks saw it. It talks about the many ways I feel God in my life, even when I'm consciously or unconsciously "thrashing." So often it feels like "sight" is just so elusive. Hope you'll keep sharing your path. ~ Claire Could a greater miracle take place than for us to look through each other's eyes for an instant?......Henry David Thoreau |
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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA |
Mike, I can relate so well to this poem. I often find myself with these same feelings. I think eventually you find what you looking for, you just have to manage to stay sane on the journey I really liked this poem. Good job. rosepetals |
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bsquirrel
since 2000-01-03
Posts 7855 |
Thanks, all. And Claire, I'll have to seek that poem out. Mike |
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Jenn E Senior Member
since 2000-08-02
Posts 589Kelowna, BC, Canada |
I could feel all of your emotions here. WOW........Never stop walking this road you travel, one day you will find what you are looking for. Jenn E |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
This beautiful life is full of pain, More than I can bear. Why do feelings of love and peace Distort into confusion and fear? ============ My voice breaks apart in song. Everything is right is wrong. ============ Why am I having these thoughts at 23? No, I'd never want it differently. =========== Still, when can I stop thrashing? When can I peacefully see where I need to be? ===================== I don't want that, ever. ==================== I need god in my life, Which is why I write. Sometimes, when I tell the largest truth It feels like the deepest lie in my power to hurt. Will I ever make people happy? Will I ever know who I am? Will I ever know anything, really? God only knows; I learn. ===================== I truely dont think I have the words to do this poems grace justice... dont think Im even gonna try... >"Sometimes, when I tell the largest truth It feels like the deepest lie in my power to hurt.< what an amazing line that is... seems to me...you answered your own questions again I say ...wise beyond your years my friend... take care bsq jm/bs |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Everything is right is wrong...this such an apt portrayal of trying to find what true meaning is to each of us---it's not just 23, Mike, it's every day...hugs to you, and I know, I owe ya an "e"...much love back to you. |
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wayoutwalt Member Elite
since 1999-06-22
Posts 4870TEXAS (it's all big) |
b yuh God knows we learn everyday from birth till eternitys neverend good thoughts here pal |
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Alle'cram Senior Member
since 2000-02-28
Posts 1816Texas |
Hi bsquirrel, I adore the humility in your poem. You have shown the very characterist God looks for in us--humble--relying on Him-not ourselves. Excellent job and your sincerity was obvious....and, ya' bet yah, He(God) read your poem! He knows your heart. (and a sweet one too) |
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AVANTI Senior Member
since 2000-02-02
Posts 664INDIA/MAHARASHTRA/PUNE |
you know I read this poem cause I wonder if "I need god " I always go Do I really need god??? what good is god doing there is so much hurt and pain in the world why? would he want to ease mine... but this poem... well maybe even I do need god In my life.. thank you for sharing lovely thoughts and words If I should fall again, then they will laugh but what if just this one I rise? Avanti Rao |
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