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You're my Dad?
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You're my Dad? |
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Sad One New Member
since 1999-10-03
Posts 2 |
I cant believe you would say that. You've hurt my feelings,to a great depth. You've taken away the last bit of bond, The bond I tried to maintain for so long. You've always thought that you were a saint. But you were devil itself when you're insane. You thought you were "kind" to take me and my mother in. But I'd rather my mother didnt remarry. I rather be poor.I'd give up everything. All I want is a tiny bit of happiness. A home where I can call home. I did try to respect you. Trying to please you with whatever I do. I was stupid to do that. Why should I do everything your way?! I am not some sort of puppet that you control. I am a human.I have feelings too. You used to tell me this, "I beat you because I love you". What kind of weird logic is that!! The times when you threatened to whack me till I bled. Or when you threatened to punch me and slap me. Do you call that love? I've put up with everything for years. You always tell me how fortunate I am. To have everything that I want,not like others. Who the hell cares for those material things! You couldnt give me what I want most. The kind of love and warmth from parents. How many time have you embarrassed me?? In front of your friends and my friends. I would become the butt of your joke. You find that funny?! You've always thought yourself as a 90's father. "Hey!You could always confide in me anytime." Do I look like an idiot to you? I've learnt my lessons.The consequences of confiding in you. Whenever you get angry,you threatened me. Threatened to tell everybody what I told you. I've imagined myself killing you so many times. The kind of thoughts I get just freaks me out. I just wanna get out of this hell. To live my life the way I want. You can then live your pathetic little life with your other kid. I'm waiting..waiting for the day, The day to start life anew. You caused me misery. But honestly,I dont hate you. Because hate is not my style. I've never hated anyone for long. Just a few minutes of rage,then it's gone. I feel better now that I've gotten these feelings out. But things will never be the same again. Never... |
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Echo Rhayne Senior Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 1495Canyon Country, CA |
WoW!!! I can feel the hurt, the pain, the suffering, the hell, the everything. I am at a loss for words, I have so much I want to say, but don't know how to say it. *hugs* BTW~Bienvenue (Welcome) to PiP! ------------------ ~*~ I write to know I am alive ~*~ |
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Pepper Member Elite
since 1999-08-19
Posts 3079Southern Florida |
very heartfelt words Sad One and I am glad that you got it out too through your writing.......Welcome to Passions ------------------ May your days be filled with lots of sunshine and your nights lit up by golden moonbeams |
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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Welcome to the family! We are a family here, and are ready to open our hearts to you. I know you know your options in a situation like you wrote about - tell someone! If your mom won't/can't help, seek out a trusted 'adult'...or just call the cops! NO ONE should be treated like this. I admire your ability to say you don't hate your stepfather - that shows maturity and class. But you also need to protect yourself. Please seek help - I'm not advocating running away - just find someone who can put this man where he belongs! |
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Blue Eyed Wanderer Member
since 1999-09-26
Posts 84Rhode Island, US |
I know exactly where you're coming from. I've unfortunately been there myself. I admire your courage for making it through this, and for writing such a great piece. |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Very sad and very well written. ------------------ Denise |
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RainbowGirl Member Elite
since 1999-07-31
Posts 3023United Kingdom |
I'm doing a lot of echoing tonight, both Echo and PDV I hope you'll find some comfort that will help to ease a little of the pain... Take care sweetheart HUGS ------------------ You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
So sad for you Sad One. I'm glad you'll be getting out of their soon. No one should live like that. Glad you could get it out in a poem, and welcome to Passions!! ------------------ What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny, compared to what lies within us. ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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Sad One New Member
since 1999-10-03
Posts 2 |
Thank you everyone for being so kind.This is all in the past and I really hope that it'll stay that way. |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
Welcome to Passions Family! I hope this is in the past. No one needs to be treated like that! I'm glad to see you channeled it through your poetry. I am a lot like that. I get very angry but never seems to stay around for long. Good writing! |
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Marilyn Member Elite
since 1999-09-26
Posts 2621Ontario, Canada |
Welcome to Passions Sad One. I hope that you find the love from this forum comforting. This a wonderful place with some of the greatest people I have met. You got out of that situation and that means you have stength.  |
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PhaerieChild Senior Member
since 1999-08-30
Posts 1787Aloha, Oregon |
Sad One, This piece struck so close to my heart. I'm glad it is in the past. Please don't let it eat you up and consume you. Welcome to PiP. We are a very supportive and loving family here and anytime you want to talk or have some one listen my email is always open ------------------ If you love me like music, I'll be your song. ~Heart~ Dreamboat Annie |
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