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Sunshine
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The Misery of Write I do not like to argue, bicker, engage in a row, or squabble. I do not care to be contentious. I dislike disagreeing, quarrelling, or to partake in a dispute. As it is, and even though I am employed in the field of law, I leave all of the above to counselors of legalese. Actually, my position is more of a peacekeeper. I am the person assigned to guarantee that the attorneys have the ability to take on their argument, bicker in their strategies, to be contentious in the correct arena, and disagree with how the law is read from the books. All of that, I can do. What I seem to fail at, and succeed wonderfully in my miserable failing, however, is to engage in a conversation of why I want, need, desire, and long for the ability and time to write. I literally experience a craving to hold a pen before a blank sheet of paper, and revel, nay, bask in the glaring light of the blankest of screens that faces me, taking on the challenge to fill that void with a word, strung with one other word, ad nauseum, that will change the direction of a heart, or a mind. And when the time comes for me to face someone who asks me “why?” I fall despondently short in my vocabulary to explain to them this need! There are some days, if given my druthers, I could do without food, drink, and even restroom breaks (no food, no drink, no need!) I would sleep only for a cat’s moment, in order to awake again to breathe this breath of ink to paper, to gush forth with this outpouring of word and emotion to see if just once I could make someone shed a tear over just the process of imagination! But I suppose even as I fail to argue well the point of this need, this burning desire, I thus let myself falter. If one does not feel the desire, one simply does not understand. And this burning desire to write such that I would make this person who does not understand, comprehend all that comes naturally and rapidly to me, continues to plague me, and the flame smolders on. I recently pondered, albeit briefly, the thought of letting this writing experience just lie fallow. “Let it go,” I thought. “What does it matter, anyway? Who would care if the writing just ceased from this pen, this keyboard, this mind of mine?” And with that thought, I died (for a brief moment.) I beheld in my heart a drowning experience, a loss the magnitude of which that only a true death of a loved one would be, could be the very example I might set forth to allow, so that you may understand, the demise of that very desire, alone. And at the moment I bore that thought, and at once felt that I could not breath again, I knew, in my heart of hearts, in my inkwell of blood, that I would continue to write. Even if it becomes a simple shopping list. < !signature--> Karilea If I whisper, will you listen?...KRJ [This message has been edited by Sunshine (edited 11-02-2000).] |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
We would write our own epitaphs and obituaries before hand if we were able my friend. . . This is excellent. . . shows just what drives the writer. . . it's a need, a desire. . . a passion. . . it makes us want to write. . . to share. . . well done. . .  ----------------------------------------------------------< !signature--> That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl [This message has been edited by Sven (edited 11-03-2000).] |
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Sunshine
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And who says we cannot write that very thing? See "Challenges"...LOL... thanks for reading... Karilea If I whisper, will you listen?... I would rather be silent and write, then speak loudly and be bound. KRJ |
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Wilfred Yeats Member Elite
since 2000-08-04
Posts 2704Wilmington, Delaware |
by my current count today - at this point you're 3 for 3 - batting 1000 as they say. (wanna see now if you can go 4 for 4  ) |
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Sunshine
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Well Mr. Yeats, I don't know if I can go 4 for 4, but I will certainly try... Karilea If I whisper, will you listen?... I would rather be silent and write, than speak loudly and be bound. KRJ |
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