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Michael
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0 posted 2012-04-22 12:43 PM



Crossroads


I wasn't looking for the crossroads, but somehow they still found me.
I don't know the price of redemption, still I know nothing comes free.
I can feel the quiet wind blow, sending slow chills down my spine...
If I leave this man my signature, what then can I call mine?
For I've towed a heavy load, with my vantage point held low;
Yet I've learned there's no exemption for anguish that does not show.
Endlessly teased by shadow comes the hunching of my back...
Though I'm anything but insecure, it's but security I lack.

For I stand, emptied and hollowed, next 'the facets of acclaim...
Look to the left -- look to the right, but dare not call your name.
I feel the numbness in my chest, that tingle on near dead skin...
Enter, at your leisure, if you must -- I will not show you in.
As somewhere beyond incognito lies that unguarded vault.
Still, if I will not grant you light, does that make it my fault?
You search a soul that never rests, one bleak night to the next...
The pinnacle of ash and dust, and hope forever vexed.

I've wandered these deserts too long, searching out that hidden stream,
For that undiminished water that fills human life with dream.
I've danced just like a puppet while, always, others pulled the strings;
Yet in your eyes, all I'll ever be is the man who clipped your wings.
And while my throat's too parched for song, Silence sings in my stead
... Of love -- how I besought her, while she filled my boots with lead.
... Of dream lost on this endless mile I still so darkly tread,
With the Styx rising about me like I were already dead.

As I howl out across the veil, a man bereft of voice,
Persistence, like a demon, still yet mocks misguided choice...
How I poured my diamond water down those unfillable holes,
And every ounce of my being upon insatiable souls.
Now there's a cost to loss of will -- suffering without end.
And, having lost my Holy Grail, who am I to pretend...
That in hell's waters I won't drown, that I might be just fine,
When, in truth, all I'm seeing is that unsigned, dotted line.


Michael Anderson

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1 posted 2012-04-22 01:07 AM


This line hit me hard, although it's probably not your intent:

"If I leave this man my signature, what then can I call mine?"

Like you, I'm livinng a destiny I could never dream as mine.

JerryPat2
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2 posted 2012-04-22 05:44 AM


The anguish untold that man wreaks upon himself, Michael, is usually self made, at least the pure terror-driven anguish, we tend to be our own worst enemy

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Margherita
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3 posted 2012-04-22 09:05 AM


quote:
I've wandered these deserts too long, searching out that hidden stream,
For that undiminished water that fills human life with dream.


The stream flows deep within yourself, dear Michael.

Wonderfully written dilemma. A signature can change our lives ... like selling a home that we call ours etc. ... Crossroads are great challenges no doubt, we need to believe in improvement which is the natural way of Universe ...

Margherita

Startime1955
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4 posted 2012-04-22 04:38 PM


Powerful words torn from the heart...well said...
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5 posted 2012-04-22 05:02 PM


a powerful and thought provoking poem, Michael.
                            Ida

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6 posted 2012-04-23 12:04 PM


"As somewhere beyond incognito lies that unguarded vault."

Interesting line. All of them very interesting.
Enjoyable read with lots of life's metaphors to support the trials of disdain.


Eric

true love never looks after it's own interests

ebonygirl
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7 posted 2012-04-23 01:51 AM


"How I poured my diamond water down those unfillable holes, and Every ounce of my being upon insatiable souls." These lines are HEAVY!
Enjoyed, ms. e

Nicole
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8 posted 2012-04-24 04:38 AM


"I've wandered these deserts too long, searching out that hidden stream,
For that undiminished water that fills human life with dream.
I've danced just like a puppet while, always, others pulled the strings;"

You could have pulled these lines straight out of my head (except the ones in my head would have been more remedial and wouldn't have any meter or rhyme lol). You always say it better.  

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9 posted 2012-06-04 12:20 PM


For I've towed a heavy load, with my vantage point held low;
Yet I've learned there's no exemption for anguish that does not show.
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And while my throat's too parched for song, Silence sings in my stead
... Of love -- how I besought her, while she filled my boots with lead.

I could easily have copied every line... for every line is such hard-hitting, vivid truth it could be a poem in and of itself. The desolation you write has the beauty of a siren's voice... drawing me in even as I know it's gonna hurt. *S* Brilliant write, my friend! *S*

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