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OwlSA
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0 posted 2009-07-03 01:20 PM



LASER SURGERY
12 November 2000

No, I will not have my feelings removed
for my pain is me
and life is misery
and joy is but a momentary reprieve.

I will not have my feelings removed
though my tears block my nose
and my head thunders
and my limbs are withered;
though I put my fingers in my ears
when friends recount stories I will not hear;
though I turn off the television
when I cannot face reality;
though I often wonder
if I could do my bit
for disaster victims;
though I know I stand alone;
though I repeatedly try to do
what is right
though it is unnoticed,
unappreciated,
or misinterpreted;
though I do not understand
the selfishness, thoughtlessness and cruelty
of the human race.

No, I will not have my feelings removed
for my pain is me
and life is misery
and joy is but a momentary reprieve.

I will not have my feelings removed
for I will not give up my moments
and I will make
and live
and remember
and wallow
in my moments
of birdsong
and Chopin sonatas
and Wordsworth and Longfellow
and leaf-fringed sunsets
and the bonding gaze of my horse and cat
and I will wash my feelings in my glorious moments.

No, I will not have my feelings removed.

Owl

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Alison
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1 posted 2009-07-03 01:24 PM


If your feelings were removed, you would be gone.  You are feelings - beautiful, sensitive, loving, kind, caring feelings.  They wrap around you and reach out to each of us.  

I love you for sharing those feelings, Diana.

Love,
Alison

Earth Angel
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2 posted 2009-07-03 01:40 PM


Well, dear Diana, you surely must have known that the title would have caught my eye!

Without our feelings ~ we ain't livin'! Be they good, bad, or indifferent. It's all part of the human experience. Mind you, I too. turn off the TV and go on a news fast "when I cannot face reality". But then, like yourself, I have pangs of guilt as to what I could be doing to change things.

Those glorious things that you mentioned certainly do have a way of adding sweetness to one's life and neutralizing the sour!

Enjoyed reading your thoughts.

Love & a warm hug,

Linda

OwlSA
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3 posted 2009-07-03 01:52 PM


Thank you Alison, for your heart-warming Alison-reply.  I am smiling with gratitude, almost all the way round my head!

Thank you Linda, for your beautiful reply too.  Yes, I did.  You are such an inspiration to me, but I think you know that very well.

Owl

inkedgoddess
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4 posted 2009-07-03 03:40 PM


To feel is to live
whether joyful or sorrow filled
The only choice is too cut off, for some
they just do to numb too much pain.
I guess it is a personal choice.
Thanks for writing this today. Very thought provoking

Midnitesun
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5 posted 2009-07-03 04:31 PM


Hang onto all those feelings, good or bad,
they make you a passionate poet!
The 'ayes' have it!

latearrival
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6 posted 2009-07-03 04:32 PM


OwlSA, I just wrote a long reply but as I sometimes get too wordy I cut it out. So all I will say is, thank you. We all suffer in one way or another. And usually it is tied to love or greed. Thank you for this.It serves as a reminder. latearrival
Margherita
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7 posted 2009-07-03 04:41 PM


May the joy gain room and misery lose some! But meanwhile you are just perfect. We are lucky to witness your feelings, dear Diana!

This poem speaks to me with the voice of your beautiful heart.

I especially love your conclusion:

I will not have my feelings removed
for I will not give up my moments
and I will make
and live
and remember
and wallow
in my moments
of birdsong
and Chopin sonatas
and Wordsworth and Longfellow
and leaf-fringed sunsets
and the bonding gaze of my horse and cat
and I will wash my feelings in my glorious moments.


Powerful!

Love and hugs, dear keeper of emotions!

Margherita

OwlSA
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8 posted 2009-07-03 05:00 PM


Michele, it warms my heart to know that this came your way when you needed it.  

Thank you, Kacy.  You say the sweetest things and always make me smile.

Thank, you, latearrival, it is my pleasure.  I am sorry to have missed your long reply.  Nobody is every too wordy for me.

Thank you, Margherita, for your kind, heartwarming reply.  You are wonderful medicine for any spirit.

Owl

Marchmadness
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9 posted 2009-07-05 01:17 PM


Sometimes life is hard for the very sensitive but perhaps we feel greater joy in the wonderful things life has to offer as well.
                                Ida

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10 posted 2009-07-05 01:21 PM


I'm moved by this piece. Thank you for sharing it.

Arana Darkwolf

2islander2
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11 posted 2009-07-05 02:32 PM


Hello Owl, this is a warm sincerity about things that go wrong and it seems to me that you stand right and strong in front of misery, I love the verses specially when you write

No, I will not have my feelings removed
for my pain is me
and life is misery
and joy is but a momentary reprieve

thanks a lot for the convincing and beautiful work.

yann

OwlSA
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12 posted 2009-07-05 05:35 PM


Ida, you are so right – and the tears (of sadness and joy) are worth it, I believe.  

Thank you for your kind comment, Arana.  Whilst I think that the name Rachael Fuchsberger is an exciting name, I think that Arana Darkwolf is even more so.  Arana is a pretty name – and I am animal-crazy, and wolves have a special excitement for me, especially as we don’t get wolves in South Africa.  I like being an owl, but I think it must be wonderful to be a wolf!

Yann, thank you for your very heart-warming comments.  You always say such lovely things that make us feel so good.  

Owl

poddarku
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13 posted 2009-07-05 10:29 PM


You have caught the moment and the lifetime of thoughts flashing vividly. When you have uttered,"for my pain is me"; it becomes the whisper of wind which I can listen here in India. God be with my brave Diana. A wise poet.

clever talks delay friendship!

Robert E. Jordan
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14 posted 2009-07-05 10:45 PM


Yo dear OwlSA,

Feelings cannot be removed.  They are always with us, even if we don’t realize it.

Love bobby

Oklahoma Rose
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15 posted 2009-07-06 05:28 AM


I learned a long time ago, that feelings are there for a reason. When I can't or don't want to face reality, I have a tendancy to withdraw from the world into my on little cacoon. I know, it's not a good thing to do. I could very easily become a recluse. So, I have to really push myself to get out.
OwlSA
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16 posted 2009-07-07 12:47 PM


Thank you, Kushal.  Pain is often another side of happiness.  I have ached for 8 years now for the loss of my darling, horse Flicka, but that is because of the absolute wonder of God’s gift of Flicka to me for 20½ years of being his, and knowing him for 2 years before that.  I talk to him every day in conversations beyond the grave and feel the reply in the warmth of his love and his sky messages, and I look at the photos of him in my room and feel his kind eye (as the saying goes, but, smiles, BOTH his eyes were kind) on me and enjoy his horse blanket on my bed, and remember how smart and cuddly he looked in it every winter. So, yes, God has listened to you and is with me every moment of every day.  May He be with you too.  

Very true, Bobby, but it is much better if we DO realise it.  Thanks for reading.  

Sue, I am glad that you do push to get yourself out when you feel like withdrawing.  Feelings are healthy and promote health too.  Smiles.

Owl

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