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spiderilia
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since 2008-04-24
Posts 21
Israel

0 posted 2008-06-24 11:50 AM


well hi all... if anyone remembers me...

just wanted to say that this one is not really a poem... its a kind of a thoughts that I had when I was down couple a days ago, and I would like to share them...

Answer to My Life

I feel i fall
Ive lost control
I feel like someone here just stole
my love, my life, and my young soul
and only thing that could have made me whole

was you
its true
I still have memories in which I flew
but there's too few...
there's only one thing that I want to do...
I open up my deck; I get a gun; I check it up; and load it too...
"I never chose to live this life! I never chose to be so blue..."
"Ive lost myself and now the hell with you!"
"its all because of you!"
"Its all; because of you!"

my pulse is beating faster now, thats it
this room, a stain of blood, one bullet and one hit
Im opening my mouth, there goes the gun, a perfect fit
only one thought:"to die! my life right now? dont worth a spit!"
I close my eyes and think thats it!
thats it...
thats it!

...

I pull the gun out, put it back
back to its place, back to the deck
I move my hands down to my neck
I look around, see only black
dont understand... Im thinking what the heck?

"to end my life? is that my right?
and who to blame Ive never put a fight?
and maybe all my life is just a test to test my might?
to leave alone, in dark, and have no light?
and have no light?
to smile and laugh in this eternal, terrifying, night...

I choose to live and not to die
although my life whs never sweet like pie
my world just broke down in my eye
Im reaching my hands to the sky...
Im crying out, Im shouting "Why?!"
"God why?!"
"For what?!"
and as an answer ... silence ...
I hope you had the time to read it all... as always, waiting for replies...

  


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eternally_singing
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since 2007-12-18
Posts 123
PA, United States
1 posted 2008-06-24 04:42 PM


wow... first word that came to my mind. Spectacularly phrased. Wonderful job!
hunnie_girl
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2 posted 2008-06-24 09:40 PM


it sooo is a poem lol and yessssss I rememer you... man its been awhile!!!1 good to have you back great poem i love it
Krysti

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