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Maitay Member
since 1999-07-16
Posts 158Sisters,OR,USA |
He holds me and caresses me, coming so close to my precious treasure. I think,"maybe I'll let him have it." Twenty minutes later as I lay in his arms he tells me to take my pick. To stay friends, or nothing. I pick friends. I think that he is my best friend. I love him with all my heart, wishing to please him yet never succeeding. Unable to be "just" friends. He asks me to come back and lay with him, I say I cant - it dont feel right. He justifies it by saying we're both single, we're not betraying anyone. I'm betraying myself. Sometimes I feel like a play toy. Yet he has proven that I am more a few times, we have a special connection in the heart. I lay back down, for some reason feeling dirty as he touches me. Not wanting him to stop, but my heart begs me to say no. I got too attached, a girls worst enemy. How can I let myself fall prey to him, to his pleasures. GOD, I love the good times, when we hold hands - just friends. I cried last night - alone, always alone. Tears are weakness, he asked me not to cry. Did I hold it in for him or me? Will we ever be happy together? I see the stars and wish one day, that with his love, I'll be carried away. To dream to live, to be able to touch, to feel, for him ALL will I give. ------------------ ~depression is not a sickness of the body or mind, but of the heart. When the heart feels alone and afraid~ [This message has been edited by Maitay (edited 08-01-99).] |
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Maitay Member
since 1999-07-16
Posts 158Sisters,OR,USA |
I want everyone to know that this is my best friend I am talking about. He won my heart two years ago, and as a friend is more than any person could ask for. He is always loyal, and has been there for me whenever I have a bad day or am overwhelmed with anything. He just doesn't know that I have very defined morals of what I feel is good and bad. Being with someone physicaly should feel good, and safe. I feel safe with him, but the fact that we just broke up, well that made me think that we shouldn't be doing that. I still love him, but I want him to know I dont think this is right. Should I send this to him? Maitay ------------------ ~depression is not a sickness of the body or mind, but of the heart. When the heart feels alone and afraid~ |
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